My Prayer 11/05

Oh dear God
Once I burned inside
But this feeling wasn’t pride
Or even lust
It was worthlessness
From a life unfulfilled
Of dreams dashed
On the brink of paradise
Of blood spilled
Of scars and wounds
That fester without waver
The weight of uncertainty
The falling out of favor
The wretched result
Of the pursuit
Of immediate gratification
That haunts my generation

Even with that said
I do not pretend
To absolve myself by ubiquity
I do not contend
That I was unwilling
To partner with iniquity
I had free will
And I abused it until
There was nothing to be done
Nowhere I could run
So I decided in my head
That being in jail
Was better than being dead

You have comforted my grief
You have cured my disbelief
It is only now I know
That path that I should follow
My past sins
You ignored
Through your grace
I am restored
The only earthly way
That I could ever repay
The kindness you have shown
Is to confirm
How much I’ve grown
By lighting the path to truth
For confused misguided youth

So dear God
I thank you
For this chance
For this change
In circumstance
For whatever
I may attain
For whatever
Days remain